Ceris ([info]ceris) wrote,
@ 2004-09-26 10:16:00
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Current mood: weird

Well, my baby's gone and I'm here alone. Sounds like a line from a song, right? Except, of course, that my baby is literally my baby, Kat. Heh - she won't like being referred to as my baby, but what the Hell, she is!

Yesterday wasn't actually as traumatic as I thought it might be. I thought I'd cry all the way to Southampton (100 miles) and all the way back. In fact, I didn't cry much on the way there, and hardly at all on the way back, and the tears I did shed weren't those of desolation, just normal sadness. Still, leaving her was horrible, all alone in her new room, which was beginning to resemble her old room at home by the time we'd finished sorting stuff out. Then - well, it was like I was abandoning her.

Spent last night on my own of course. It's odd - but not terrifying. Waking up knowing she wasn't there wasn't so great, but I have to keep myself busy.

I just hope we'll both be ok.




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[info]moonlitpages
2004-09-26 08:27 am UTC (link)
I'm glad you posted! I was worried about you yesterday, because I knew it would be a heartwrencher. I was wibbly enough myself, and I wasn't even there! *laughs* I just kept remembering how hard it was for me my first day moving into the dorms at college-- but that was also because my parents didn't come to see me off so I was wibbly and lonesome. I think it's great that you and Andrew went all that way to be were there for Kat-- it really does make a difference having that support, I think :-)

I don't think you'll have to worry about that girl though-- knowing her, she'll have made friends with everyone on her floor by monday *laughs*

I hope everything is as well with you as it can be at the moment :-)

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[info]ceris
2004-09-26 09:15 am UTC (link)
Thanks sweetie for your support :-)

Well, Andy and I had to go with her, didn't we? Couldn't just let her go on her own (anyway, Andy ahd to drive her!). I was worried about whether I was doing the right thing because I didn't want to upset her by being upset, but I'm so glad I've seen where she's staying etc, and I think it was much better for Kat too.

I had a little cry this morning but otherwise I've been okay. Lots of people have called me to check that I haven't cracked up :-) It feels very odd without Kat being here though, as you can imagine. I'm trying not to call and hassle her, but I'll probably text her later just to see how she's settling in and put my mind at rest.

I've been keeping myself extremely busy with preparing lesson plans for starting work on Tuesday. I do feel that I've accomplished a lot today, actually.

Will keep you posted as to how I'm doing :-)

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[info]moonlitpages
2004-09-26 11:36 am UTC (link)
When I called her last night, she was already on her way out with a new pal-- told you it wouldn't take long! *laughs* Maybe you should put on some McFly or something equally obnoxious very loudly if the house starts feeling too empty ;-) But hey on the upside, at least now you can watch Lord of the Rings at full volume whenever you want, without admonishment *grins*

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[info]kat99999
2004-09-29 06:55 am UTC (link)
McFlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I am just so pleased to be online hahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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[info]moonlitpages
2004-09-29 06:56 am UTC (link)
You're just going to start spamming random threads with "!!!!!"'s now, aren't you? hee.

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[info]kat99999
2004-09-29 08:05 am UTC (link)
!!!!!!!!!!!

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[info]ceris
2004-09-30 01:30 am UTC (link)
Yo yo it's Kat McBat! Being online must be like a fix of your favourite drug!

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[info]kat99999
2004-09-29 06:54 am UTC (link)
AI AI AI WHAT IS THIS WOE!

I AM HERE LOOK :D :D :D

Only on in the resource centre but they are going to fix my hole in the wall today or tomorrow SO THEY SAY :D :D :D I AM SUPER PLEASED :D :D :D

HELLO ALSO

I TRIED TO PHONE YOU AND YOU DIDNT PICK UP, BAD MUMMY >:O

LOVE <333333333333333333333333

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[info]ceris
2004-09-30 01:34 am UTC (link)
Sowwy baby - as said in my text, had a late night. Went to a leaving do, and then Keith lost his wallet and we had to phone police etc!!!!!!

I pwomise to try to be tomorrow afternoon/evening - I might go out in afternoon if I can't get my contract sorted out, but should be able to do it today :-)

Work (heh heh, me going to work!) has been great. I love the teaching so far, although the bureaocracy is a pain. But all staff are v friendly and the students are good too. Am tired though. Have a class this afternoon - 2 til 4. Then I am going to come home and collapse. Talk soon.

Love to you too <3333333333333333333333

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